My work location is changing the way that we work internally. Our processes are changing, something that I for one am really glad about! They worked hard to make sure that the changes are super radical and that we’re starting with baby-steps. On top of that, my manager is changing again. Our organization is going through a lot of changes and the structure is changing completely. I knew the change was coming and I had time to reflect on how it was going to affect me. I knew there would be people who weren’t going to like the change, and I wondered why I wasn’t like that.
There are some who might argue that search and reunion was a mostly negative thing in my life. It would have been an interesting opinion at several stages of the game (six months ago it would have made sense). Things haven’t always been easy and there have been a lot of ups and downs. I stand by my statements that I’d rather know than not know. Plus having my history has been an amazing and freeing thing, even if my relationships aren’t always what I’d like them to be.
A side effect of all of this however has been my acceptance of change in my life. Before search and reunion, I hated change. I didn’t tend to do well with it. I struggled with each passing school year, with the changing of jobs, and with friends who would come and go from my life. Reunion has made me realize a few things though when it comes to change.
My entire world changed with reunion. It wasn’t just that I learned a few things and moved on with my life. I found a whole other family. I learned my heritage, where I get my personality from, and who I looked like. I was able to answer BIG questions for the first time ever. I went through an identity crisis in a good way. Not only did my answers on health surveys change, but I also changed the way that I look at myself in the mirror. I even changed the way I relate to other people. The way I form relationships has changed now too because I’ve learned so much about myself (and come to realize just how much of a person’s personality is something THEY can’t change). I see things very differently now, all in a good way!
This all came with a price. I had to put in the work. I had to do a lot of soul searching and there were many tears that were spilled over various things. Do I like the way things are all the time? Of course not. Things haven’t been all roses and sunshine. This doesn’t take away from all of the amazing things I’ve gained. Because I was able to change my view of the world (and myself), I’ve come to be a more whole and complete person. I wouldn’t trade any of that.
Other’s may be struggling to adapt to the new system at work, but I’m excited for it. I’m sure it’s going to take some work. And I know that it’s not going to be easy. I can already tell the things about it I’m probably not going to love, but I can see the huge potential to make my life a lot easier. It’s suited to my strengths and I’m excited to see what’s going to happen. I don’t know if I’d be as excited pre-reunion. I’ve come to learn that change isn’t a bad thing and in fact can be quite amazing. It’s a great attitude to have!
